Boyfriends.

"Boyfriends are supposed to love you, take care of you, and make sure you always feel special. He doesn't make me feel special when he laughs at me with his friends. It doesn't seem like he cares for me when he orders me around. And I definately don't feel loved because all he wants is sex. But somehow through all this, he is still labeled a boyfriend."

Dear Stranger,

I am so in love, its like the world is falling into simplicity. my heart is so content I think it might burst! I know I'm no 'friend' of yours, but I'd like to get to know you better. I may seem crazy to you already. I know that, but i want you to use your wonderful mind. if you want to write me back, I'll pick up letters from locker . If not, I'll be thinking of you always. conversation only goes as far as a response.

Remember me always,
Bijou Bleu xoxo

Dear Stranger,
I lack am for so many in moon love, calling its clown like morning the disasterous world vaccums is and falling around into marshmellow simplicity.Something my mermaid heart wish is more so fruit content and I shimmy think silly it forgot might contemplating burst! Tell I speak know fall I'm calm no spider 'friend' like of holding yours instead, but pretend I'd air like me to whip get spring to kitten know why you hugging better. Mother I park may function seem terrible crazy magic to find you manage already. Jam I young know proper that game, but size i cut want nothing you fidget to simulate use smother your steak wonderful sick mind. Thousands if and you yellow want paper to smack write dice me child back violin, I'll song pick power up streets letters sky from nothing locker lies . If my not smoother I'll fire be romance thinking chilling of nights you around alway. Cliff conversation is only bunny goes white as comes far silver as rose a thorn response.
Remember me always,
Bijou Bleu xoxo

SUPERMAN- says:
i thought if we broke up u would end urself
Bubble Gum says:
well
yeah
maybe that too
but i mean
its always possible you realize how wonderful i am
and then come back to me
but that doesnt really work if im dead right?

do you love me?
SUPERMAN- says:
idk ask me wen i wake up
Bubble Gum says:
no
im asking you now
do you love me
SUPERMAN- says:
well idk
idk
Bubble Gum says:
its a yes or no questoin
**question
if you dont thats fine
i still love you
you can break my heart
and move on to someone else
and ill still follow at your heals
**heels
and probably die an old maid

Bubble Gum says:
but you really are starting to piss me off
getting mad at me all the time?
ha!
im starting not to care
you say something mean
i laugh
at how stupid it sounds
i told you i was fed up a long time ago
and you didnt listen
you didnt change
i tired everything too
crying, hurting, anger, cutting, confusion, compliance
you didnt notice
so now theres tree options
you let ME yell at YOU for a while
you change
or we're not going to work
because of your stupid mood swings
youre killing me
and yourself
which is like double kill on me
you keep trying to convince me you'll change
but mum is right
guys never do
ever
they cant
which
you cant really use as an accuse
"im a boy"
yeah? so?
youre an ignorant boy at that
so really
why should i waste my time?
when i can be perfectly happy single?
because i always have
i bounce back
leave anyone who crushes me in the dust
russlle?
**russell
?
i hardly talk to
tho i wasnt as harsh back then
because i didnt know any better
so hes fine
hes still working on the friendship bit
but we'll see
as for tyler
well
i killed him
dead and gone
i can ruin him easy
where he'll be all alone
and never have anyone for more than a month
even if he HAS tried to start rumours
i ignore them
cause im like that
rumors dont bug me
theyre just stupidity
in a comment
just like that
"i heard blah blah blah"
"yeah? youre an idiot"
becasue people belive everything they hear
and move it around
I dont do that
im too kind
i dont take sides
unless its really worth it
but i can get mad sometimes
if i want to
or pissed off
like now
at you
for being mad at me all the time
over the STUPIDEST things
like REALLY
can you NOT keep your comments to yourself?
if youre going to bitch about me wearing a SKIRT than dont blow it into a HUGE argument
thats stupid
skirts are feminin
not slutty
skirts that dont cover your ass theres a problem with
however
mine do
so dont bitch at me about it
because im NOT a slut
another thing that bugs me
is the kissy neck thing
like i told you to stop
you didnt
i push you away
you try again
has it ever crossed your mind i maybe, hmmm, DONT LIKE IT?
nither do other people
its gross
and embaressing
i cant kill you
because i love you
tho i could
easily
ruin you
cause im powerful like that
or i like to think i am
but usually i am
but really, you should concider yourself lucky
because of the whole stephen thinf
**thing
last year
i chose him
no doubt i would
hes annoying
and a jerk
and immature
but i still choose him
over a 7 month relationship
with
well
an ass whole
yes with a w
because its like
the WHOLE thing
...
anyway
for YOU
i chose you
not stephen
well
gave him a choice
knowing which he'd pick
i havent spoken to him in 2 and a half days
which doesnt bug me
im prone to ignoring him anyway
but then amber follows both of us
so she wont know what to do
though she'll probably chose him
but really
if you havent noticed
youre killing my group of friends
and tearing us apart
even though theyre my brothers and sisters practically
i still chose you
which should make you slightly happy
because im not stupid
i knew that it would happen
and you still dont trust me
you dont like skirts
because you dont trust me to not leave you
but of course
of turned it into an awful experience
(one that pisses me off the most)
and now
youve kinda moved us farther away
because i can dress however i want
and how do YOU know its for other guys
maybe i do it for you
or
maybe
i do it for me
because it makes me feel kinda feminin
which is nice
because sometimes you get sick of wearing jeans everyday
and eyeliner?!
come on!
how is that evil
it was never an argument i know
but REALLY
its eyeliner
who cares
how about one more hmm?
i hate how you tell ME to fuck off
or say fuck you
because swearing is evil
and we've all become desensitized to it
so no one really cares anymore
but i do
i know what it means
i still remember when we had a quarter jar in our house
now mum doesnt care if i say
fuck
or shit
or something like that
because we're SO used to it
but when YOU say it to me
its so different
its something that should never be said
because if you love me you wouldnt
"evil words will kill the soul, and glory will quickly faid"
**fade
i cant spell
yay me
but you say it
and i know when youre not joking
and even if you are joking
it still hurts
because ill take it literally
ill stop now
im done
my emotions have fled
this is what you'd usually find in my blog
(yes i have one)
its a secret
kept only for myself
sometimes i send you bits when the time is right
but usually i put this sort of thing there
so i dont hurt you
but
you hurt me, i hurt you, what goes around comes around nes pas?
i love you
i honestly do
but
im sick of fighting
and im not going to keep everything in
which i have
just like a pop bottle i exploded
and im sorry if i hurt you
and i know i did
and i also know youre there
because im smart like that
now
its dinner time for me
ill be back in a bit
love you

Stop giving me excuses
you only make it worse
maybe when you learn to use your own words
ill give you back what you deserve

all those stupid love songs
mean nothing to me at all
because everytime you break my heart
ive heard them all before

you're always so angry with yourself
you never seem to notice
that empathy runs deeper than
the soul within its self

because even if you disagree
i still feel your pain
and everytime you diss yourself
youre really dissing me